pinch me

well, once again, God came through (why does my foolish heart ever question this?). not only has my unemployment been extended until the end of may, but i'm getting a tax refund. apparently, i made so little money this last year, the feds and state are giving me all of my withholding back. let me tell you - it could NOT have come at a better time!

in other news, i'm making huge personal strides these days. last night, i took a risk with someone very dear to me and exposed part of myself that i didn't think i could ever share with another person. i was terrified. part of me thought that it might ruin me somehow. but that could not have been farther from the truth. what it has done, in fact, is bring us closer, allowed me to feel more freed up, and God has planted a seed in my heart that things ARE changing for me - that i will not always be the way that i am. and tonight, this person and i had a long talk, and it made me feel more and more secure that my decision was the right one. i am truly astonished at God's love for me....

i've wondered a few times if i'm going to wake up and realize that i've dreamed the last week of my life. thankfully, i don't think anyone, especially me, could sleep that long!