Thursday, December 08, 2011

rewind to day 5: a bit of a downer, i'll admit

i'm going out of order, but here's my catch-up post from day 5.

so the question is: what is the one thing you finally did this year that you always wanted or said you were going to do, but in your heart of hearts never thought you would actually do?—courtesy of Amy

here's the God's honest:

nothing.

this year has been ALL about plodding and trying to keep my head above water. about dealing with the psychological fallout of getting bedbugs on a business trip last winter and having my entire mind, body, and soul consumed [read: obsessed] with their good riddance (and they were) and subsequent obsession about their return (and they have not). seriously, for someone who already has a smidge of OCD, that does NOT do a body good.

so in the midst of all of that mess [read: sleeplessness, anxiety, paranoid fixations on other people's stuff and whether it had bugs], i gained weight back that i had worked my ass off (literally) to lose, i retreated more into a social hole, and i lost my creative sensibilities almost entirely. living in triage mode every day does NOT make for an interesting existence.

and here we are nearly a year later and i'm feeling ready for a shift in the wind more than ever. because frankly, when this blog endeavor comes around next year, i'd like to be able to say that i did something truly kick-ass.

like write that great american novel once and for all!

5 comments:

Jennifer Bergey said...

You've had so much to deal with - ugh. I'm glad you kept your head above water and here's for a kick-ass celebration next December!

sarah said...

amen to that, sister!!

AmyK said...

Ugg, bedbugs...I'd likely still be freaking out. Regarding the novel, check out NaNoWriMo.org and remember, you can't edit if you don't have any words down.

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