okay, so i've had a revolutionary train of thought today: what would it cost me to believe that my life...that my life right now, specifically, is going to be okay? what if i extended my hope in God to work things out in a way that not only is for my 'ultimate good' but could make me happy RIGHT NOW? what if i make up my mind to be at peace with where i am, say what it is that i'm hoping for, and then believe in my heart that it could be possible?
is it crazy? maybe. do i choose it? you betcha.