Tuesday, October 31, 2006

freak or genius? you decide.

okay, the truth is i don't like halloween. i'm not what you'd call a 'participator.' and i'm not trying to be a debbie downer or whatever, but i'm just really not into it. all the costumes and candy and 'boo' and all that...it's just not really me.

so, you can imagine how thrilled i was when it was decided last week that everyone in my department was required to wear at least one item of 'costume' to this week's team lunch. but you know, i had a moment in which i thought go with it....so i did.

as a result—and because i am a complete freak/genius—i dressed up as the seven-year itch (the costume consisted of a timeline and a back-scratcher).

only 3 people got it (and they were all over 50), but their laughter was well worth it...let me tell ya.

Sunday, October 29, 2006

fall back: turkey bacon and ennui

this morning, i woke up at 6:30 (new time), read some articles and blogs for a bit, and then made breakfast for me and salimah (she stayed over last night). it was nice to be up early, being productive and feeling like i was getting a jumpstart on my day.

now i have a load of laundry brewing in suds and, thanks to a combination of bath and body works products, i smell like vanilla cookies and cinnamon. oh, and i'm drinking a skim chai from starbucks.

if it weren't for the fact that i feel kind of blah, i suppose all of those things would equal a good morning so far. we'll see how the rest of the day shakes out....

Saturday, October 28, 2006

i'm not sure whether i'm fighting something off or whether it's because fall has finally arrived and the days are getting shorter, but i cannot seem to stay awake past a decent hour at night lately. in fact, i'm lucky if i make it to 9:00. and i gotta tell ya - it's cramping my style....or, more appropriately, my ability to get ANYTHING DONE.

today i'm preparing lunch for me, my parents, and salimah. we're having salmon with creamy tamarind sauce, romaine salad with balsamic vinaigrette (grape tomatoes, cucumbers, carrots, etc.), brown rice with caramelized portabella mushrooms and green onions, and strawberries for dessert.

now then, my parents are set to arrive here in about 4 hours, so i've got to get a move on....

Thursday, October 26, 2006


i have decided to do something a bit wackadoo. actually, it's not technically wackadoo, but given my insane schedule of late, it has caused me to question my own sanity a bit. i am going to attempt full-on participation in national blog posting month (nablopomo), which means that i will post once a day to my blog for every day in november.

i cannot promise pith, dear readers, but i shall TRY to provide you with something of substance as often as possible. deal?

wish me the best....

Monday, October 23, 2006

i'm being stalked by my cable company for a bill i've already paid.

i'm not sure what to say about that, but their automated system KEEPS calling me and telling me that it's 'urgent we speak with you.' so i patiently wait on the line, and either i get disconnected, or no one ever shows up. (i'm sorry, but if i have to wait for you for more than 5 minutes when YOU CALLED ME, i feel that's beyond the scope of what is reasonable.)

i find it hilarious that, in this day and age, these computerized systems can't seem to synch themselves up. i mean, shouldn't this 'highly sophisticated' piece of auto-calling genius (replete with scary-sounding deep-voiced man) be able to access my account and realize that i've got a ZERO balance? it's smart enough to dial me and harass me; why can't it go the extra step?

thank goodness i've managed to memorize their number so that when they call me sometimes up to THREE times a day, i can promptly ignore the call. perhaps i should just start calling them and leaving THEM stern messages about how they only called me twice today and if you're going to errantly stalk me, you'd better do a better job about it.

that'd teach 'em.

Saturday, October 21, 2006

you'll forgive my recent silence, blog world. i'm just really rather empty lately.

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

some things just aren't worth it

there are moments in life when it really feels like there is NO ONE who gets you. i'm having one of those moments.

Sunday, October 15, 2006

relative accomplishment

well, after many hours of tidying, dusting, vacuuming, scrubbing, and garbaging (okay, so i made that one up), my apartment has reached a level of cleanliness with which i can be satisfied—at least for now.

i don't want to be overly newsy (but deal with it, because i've got nothing pithy to say), so here's a brief rundown of the rest of my saturday:

1. quick visit with my very good friend kim that involved, among other things, talk about cookie decorating
2. trip to macy's with salimah (at which i purchased a cuisinart juicer i've been wanting for about 2 years—it was on sale) so that SHE could get a DVD player, only to find out that they no longer sell electronics: bummer
3. grocery store (quick trip)
4. chicken thighs mounded with cornbread-sour cherry-cashew stuffing—buttery and crisp after baking
5. 'click' with adam sandler: in general, enjoyable, but it did get rather macabre at the end
6. laundry: 2 loads
7. sleepsville

today is shaping up to be a visit to freelance town (with some more laundry thrown in). productive weekends really ARE the best, but i'm also kind of wiped out lately. is it wrong that i miss the vegging a little? (food network, i still love you.)

Friday, October 13, 2006

birthday cake + dust bunnies = snarky me

i'm so thankful this week is over. i plan on having a long talk with my pillow tonight. seriously, i'm exhausted.

today at work, we had our monthly employee birthday recognition cake. normally, i don't partake...grocery store cakes don't do much for me. but for some reason, i was craving a little something sweet. suffice it to say that i had not only a piece of cake, but a little strawberry ice cream AND some peanut m&ms. i don't think i need to tell you that i was ROLLING on that sugar high. all kinds of funny (or perhaps insane) stuff was flowing from my mouth for the next hour. i'm certain all my coworkers thought (think) i'm even more nuts than they suspected before.

despite the fact that i've already kind of crashed and am now fully in the mellow swing of things, i have to drum up enthusiasm sufficient to clean my HOT MESS of an apartment tonight. and really, i know that it could theoretically wait until tomorrow, but i've got news for you: if i wait, it ain't happening.

so basically, this means i'm in a less than stellar mood.

but you know what? i'm gonna feel so freaking good once i do these chores. i'm going to don my cleaning garb—bandana, sweat pants, flip flops, old t-shirt—and make some headway. those dust bunnies won't even know what hit 'em!

Tuesday, October 10, 2006

straight to the point...except not

after work upon work this evening, salimah and i went over to chili's for a burger. it hit the spot. so did our conversation about people with jacked up agendas and the inability (or unwillingness) to grow a pair and call someone back.

and when all is said and done, i can't even be that mad, because what does it matter anyhow?

and if i'm being honest, i'm sad tonight. because i can't have what it is that i feel like i'm supposed to have. how can everything point in one direction, except the funny little thing called what's actually going on?

God, if i even knew one thing right now, i feel like i'd be at least in the game. forget about being ahead of it.

Monday, October 09, 2006

safe(not really "safe," per se, but safe enough)way

on the way home from work this afternoon, i made a 'quick' stop in at the safeway near my house (and by 'quick,' i was hoping for 10 minutes; it wound up being more like 35 or 40) to grab some dinner. i ordered a turkey sandwich with cranberries and havarti cheese from the deli and then, of course, while i was there, i noticed that they had a sale on lean cuisine and steam-in-the-bag veggies, so i picked up some of those. oh, and some organic, unsweetened bottled iced tea for a buck each (got 4 of those), some whipped yoplait for 50 cents each (again, 4), bananas (yup, you guessed it...), and i don't even remember what else.

what is it with me? i can't go into the store and return with just 2 or 3 things. i always see things on sale - or that i need - or that i could just buy now and save myself the trouble later. it's never simple.

either way, though, my freezer is STOCKED with frozen dinners and quick veggie options. this is good for me right now. i don't have much in the way of time to be cooking meals. i've got too much occupying my hours these days (got to bring home the turkey bacon).

and tonight is shaping up to be another busy night. now if i could only get this headache to go away....

Sunday, October 08, 2006


i got a new phone yesterday afternoon. after spending 2.5 hours (yes, you read that right) at the sprint store near me, dealing with a slightly unpleasant female manager, and haggling with the customer service people over the phone about why they won't cut a girl A BREAK (for crying out loud), i took my measly 75-dollar credit (it should have been 150, but sprint recently changed their freaking rules - and don't think i didn't give them a piece of my mind about this) and purchased a sleek little black number.

to be honest, the price was right, it has bluetooth (which is a bonus), rocks the camera (which i'd gotten to used to having to go back to a phone without one), and it WORKS when i turn it on (that last one was a major selling point). plus, a friend of mine has one, and he feels that it's supa fly. i feel that i agree....

anyhoo, so far, i'm just relieved as all get-out to be able to call my mama (which i just did; she seemed happy about it). everyone breathe a sigh of relief along with me. go ahead. it'll make you feel better....

oh, and if you haven't heard from me in awhile, don't be surprised if you get a little ringie-ringie in your life:).

Saturday, October 07, 2006

i have a confession to make. last night, at around 3:45, i woke from the place i had zonked out on the couch and then proceeded to obsess about my now-completely-dead phone. i ransacked a few drawers looking for my original packaging, hoping against hope that i might have a USB cord that goes with the phone through which i could download stuff from my phone to my computer. no such luck.

so, instead of getting into bed to get warm and toasty and to, well, go back to SLEEP (and it was SUPER cold in my room, too), i sat at the computer reading blogs and watching youtube videos in a too-thin for the cold nightgown until about 6:30 in the morning. what is wrong with me?

okay, well, i don't quite have the answer to that one, but suffice it to say that i'm going to scrape my nickels and dimes together and see about getting me a new phone today. i can't even call my mother and my best friend. times are tough.

Thursday, October 05, 2006


the sky this morning was a beautiful sight: puffy gray clouds with the brightest sunbeams straining through them. to me, it was God's reminder of His presence in the midst of sorrow.

i drove to work early so that i could leave by 9 and make it down for salimah's dad's funeral. as my car sped down the highway, i saw a lone hawk circling in the sky. the scripture that kept coming to my mind was isaiah 40:31:

but those who hope in the Lord
will renew their strength.
they will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.

God reminded me in that moment that those words apply not only in this life here and now, but forevermore. daryl harvey was in a physically weakened state. his body was wracked with the effects of severe diabetes. his body had betrayed him for too long, and even walking had become more and more difficult over time. his passing was sudden and yet something we had expected for awhile now....and, as always, it happened much too soon.

in God's presence, daryl's strength has been perfectly renewed. his body is no longer held back by the devastating impact of illness or pain. he is whole; the years in which he lacked health have been restored to him, and then some. he IS finally home. my heart is filled with so much joy in knowing that.

it was, to say the least, a hard day. lots of tears, moments of prayerful sorrow, and holding this family whose sadness will travel with them for a long time. but even in the midst of grief, we had pockets of such laughter. what i love about salimah and her sisters is that there is always room to find hilarity, even in the midst of seriousness. some of my favorites from the day:
  • the limo driver whose speech was unintelligible but whose cell phone ringer was james brown's 'i feel good' (and it went off during the ceremony at quantico....imagine james brown's 'HEY! i feel good....' echoing across a lovely green meadow. priceless.)
  • one of the pastors who, while praying, referred to those gathered as 'mens and womens.' none of us could quite get over that one.
  • while standing beside the casket right before the service, through tears, salimah plainly announced, 'these flowers smell like feet.'
  • the woman reading the obituary who, when confronted with the fact that she didn't know the word 'eclectic' decided to change it to 'excellent' and managed, without fail, to mispronounce several people's names - salimah's mother's and sister's included.
it just goes to show you....despite the occasion, you just need some levity sometimes. it keeps you sane, i think.

so, it is with heavy heart and weary eyes that i say goodbye to salimah's daddy, daryl harvey. i thank God for you, daryl, and most of all, i thank God that salimah's heart and yours were at peace with one another. she loved you deeply, profoundly...both despite and because of who you are. and because of that, i love you, too. rest in peace, daryl...renewed and strong and finally where you are meant to be.

Tuesday, October 03, 2006

quick question

should i be at all concerned about myself that i have a nick lachey song stuck in my head?

Sunday, October 01, 2006

snapshots of sunday

brilliant sun and impressionist clouds (monet couldn't have done it better himself.)
verdent key limes tied in a mesh bag
blood orange italian soda
creamy gorgonzola (its destiny is a pasta dish.)
children laughing in the parking lot
red pen smeared on my pinky knuckle
windows open, wool socks, favorite warm-up jacket
two songs looping simultaneously through my head (one ryan adams, the other the fray)
dusty furniture
clean sheets
cafe con leche
nervous stomach
stack of books to sell on amazon
way too many pens and pencils
brown sugar-vanilla hand lotion
real estate listings
to-do list for life